Oh hi guys :O

Yep, I'm still around. I've just not been in as much of an internet/4chan/Livejournal/etc mood as I used to be in the past. But I'm still here... I'm just mostly playing WoW now XD;;;;



She kicks booty :3 here's her armory

I want to level her more, but school started yesterday, so I don't think I'm going to have as much time anymore. Maybe on the weekends :X

I could talk about my life and my winter break and my classes here, but I just don't want to XD I'm too lazy... but you guys should know that I still love you <3 I have Skype now too so we should talk you know! :D

Super Mario Galaxy is amazing.

*_*

I haven't felt like this about a game in a long time.

Animals... are awesome.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=ULlsVcW5bRI

Gigantic Husky: omg! what's this little thing?! omg play with me 8D~ play with meee
Kitten: WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU, GET THE FUCK OUT

Oh God. Super Mario Galaxy.

http://www.gametrailers.com/game/2660.html

Do want. So bad D: I'm sure I have $50 laying around here somewhere?!

EDIT: This song is awesome. I aim to be your eyes, show me boys show me wives~

So, nanowrimo. It's coming along slow. Very slow. I have about 3300 words, when I should have over 10,000 by now. And it doesn't stop there: what I have so far sucks and I know it, which isn't helping me get motivated. BUT, I gotta keep going! faito!

Um... would anybody be interested in giving what I had so far a read? I'm looking for like.... one person. That can tell me what they think and gimme some input. I'm worried the pacing is bad and that my writing in general is bad. D:

I know you're not supposed to worry about that and just WRITE write write, but still. The problem with all these "do this huge project in a small amount of time" events is that they force me to suppress my need to be satisfied with my own work, especially before I continue to work on it. :\

Also, this song is amazing.

I made some icons from Super Mario Galaxy screenshots! Some of the screens were so gorgeous, I didn't even add anything to the images. And I'm using a few, and switched up the colors of my journal accordingly... whew, it's been a while.

( It's-a me! )

My mom was in town over the weekend. I've missed her so much. I hadn't really spent any time with her at all since I came back from Japan, so it felt good to be around her for longer than two hours or so. I haven't really talked to her since June, before I left.

She helped me clean my room, lectured me a few times, took me food shopping, gave me some money, and slept in my bed with me last night. I love you Mama <3

Of course, my Dad couldn't get off his ass and come see me, but that's pretty much to be expected. Sometimes I wonder if I forget that he's already into his sixties and can't do what he used to, but I quickly remember how it has nothing to do with that. It's always all about him. Knowing how he is, and how he's always been that way and will never change, I don't even want him to come, but I still wish I had a father who cared at the same time. Oh well?

Man I got a lot to do this week. I've got a job now (at the mall! JOY! hah, no.) so that's gonna suck up a lot of my free time. I wonder if I can learn to manage it better, or if I'm hopeless XD

In Jurassic Park, if I remember right, they genetically engineer the dinosaurs to be dependent on the human caretakers for some specific essential nutrient, I forget the details. Otherwise, a "faulty enzyme" gets triggered and they fall into a coma and die.

It sounds like a pretty good method of keeping people close, too. Engineer dependence into their very DNA, so they have no choice. I had been looking for an actual genetic disorder that required timely taking of medication to manage, but then I thought of Jurassic Park and realized that concept was what was in my head when I was searching. XD

I guess I could just make some naturally-occuring disease up, but the concept of actually "programming" a dependency on medication like that is very interesting and manipulative. I've been browsing Wikipedia looking for something, but yeah, I think I'll just create my own. :D

In other news, I messed up my neck this morning. This is the third time this has happened :( I'll be doing something normal, and turn my head or do something casual, and I'll hear a pop and suddenly, incredible pain. The first time it happened, I saw my mom that weekend, and after she adjusted my neck it went away before the day was over. But the second time I had to rough it out for over a week before it somehow faded away.

I can turn my head right and left, but I can't lower my cheek down to my right shoulder. I literally can't, my neck stops after going about 10 degrees and pain shoots deep in my neck, down my shoulder, and into my shoulder blade. It's not really *that* bad, if I keep my head upright, and don't move it to make it hurt, and take asprin, it's like the regular soreness my neck has. But damn. It is extremely annoying. When I have a serious pain like this, even if it's not in a position where it hurts right now, there's still this "ambient" pain that makes my whole body feel anxious and unhappy.

Sucks that my mom gave me her apparently messed up spine/back genes. That's why she became a chiropractor - after she decided she hated nursing she couldn't decide what to do with her life. Then one day, as she was getting out of a taxi, her back just went out on her, at the age of 22 or so. She literally could not stand or move, she was in so much pain. The taxi driver had to get out of the car and pick her up and put her back in. She went to a chiropractor and got better, and that's what made her decide to do that. Even today she has bad back and neck problems.

So thanks a lot for that, Mom. XD

quixotichoyden gave me a neck and back rub today to help me feel better. Thanks <3

NaNoWriMo.

Or to type it all out, National Novel Writing Month!

Yeah, this year, I didn't do a 24 hour comic. I remember, I drew about 4 pages and then fell flat on my ass asleep.

So maybe to make up for that, I'll torture myself with something even more awesome and much more difficult: writing a 50,000 word novel in a month. (That's over 1500 words a day, which isn't *too* bad.) I'm not even much of a writer, and whatever I write will probably go around in circles and wander a lot. But just like 24h comics, it'll force me to actually get some idea that's been rattling in my head down on paper for once.

My newish friend surgo is doing it too, and his is shaping up to be pretty awesome. But now I gotta pull some rough ideas together over the next few days before it starts. I wonder if I should be getting into this XD

Something I'm constantly battling with is

1) Why do so many people seem to dislike me or be rude to me for no reason, to a degree significantly higher than what most people might experience running into assholes randomly?

or

2) Why do I always think that so many people seem to dislike me or be rude to me for no reason, to a degree significantly higher than what most people might experience running into assholes randomly?

The problem being I don't know which is true and which isn't. (Though I suspect #2.)

I wish I could figure it out because it really saps my confidence and makes me feel unhappy.